I'm Yours

b. July 15, 1981

28 years ago, it was, that...

God stood over His/er table with two cookie cutters, freshly made... S/he started with one but it split right there on the pane.

Now, God doesn't make mistakes, this was all part of the plan... though S/he thought it a bit too much for the world to use both right then.

So S/he put one aside for a year, and a little more (in His/er eyes, the briefest moment),

Used one, then the other, but this story's not 'bout the second.

Cause the two cutters were the same, but different, you see

So the story of you is like the story of me

But, being different, here there's room for only one

The most beautiful shining creature, blessed by the sun

Born in July, never too shy, just a smile from this girl makes me sigh

And swoon, and bloom, and never cry, but thankfully praise all above

For blessing me with her presence, her friendship, and her love :)

Happy Birthday to you, Natalie. Belated as these wishes are, you are brighter than every star in my eyes, and prettier too, and so it's only just that I honour you.

Love More

When I returned from my recent excursion to Edmonton, I had a whole day to myself before my son and my sister returned home. I took the opportunity to take a nice long walk, and to reflect on the events of that excursion. What a time I had, what a time it was! Such delightful, delicious memories... too much to share here ;) But I had a lot on my mind, too... questions I didn't have answers for assaulted my brain. I tried to just let the thoughts float, not demanding answers, just being open... 

Then I decided to walk through this little underpass by the Co-Op Grocery Store - it connects the store parking lot to the Frame Lake walking trail. 

It was kinda creepy, 'cause it's so small, but kinda cool too. When I got through to the other side, I happened to glance over my shoulder, 

and noticed a message left behind by some aspiring urban artist: 

I smiled for the rest of my walk  :) 

On the subject of beauty....

Yellowknife has it's downsides... more and more it seems, these days. But, there are some shining upsides; for one, this little city is blessed to have some great artists residing here. One of my favorites, Helen Croft, creates works that are absolutely dazzling to view in person. I once heard it told that for the finer details in her works, she uses just a single hair from her paint brush.

I can only think of one image more pretty than what she paints... she is more pretty than anything :) 

The trials of parenthood...

8 pm 

Nikoli has decided that the battle is on. He had a terrible day at school and was sent home at about 1 pm; calmed down for a little while but then just went from 0 to 60 once we got home. I guess he figured that he shouldn't be grounded and wanted to play with his toys, and once I reminded him that was not an option all I could hear was this bell going "ding, ding!" and a baritone voice going "Let's Get Ready to RUUUMMMBLLLLLLLLE!", lol.  And I thought to myself, ok, great, here we go.  I don't know what's going on with this kid... but, to find out, I have to be patient. Very, very, very patient. Because he is testing me today, and refuses to stop. He's misbehaved so many times, the kid has lost 40 toys today. 40. I'm not kidding. 

See,  because spanking is outlawed and timeouts are ineffective, when he's misbehaving we take his toys away. 1 toy for every rule broken. And usually, it only takes one or two to get the message through, even when he's at his worst. But not today, oh no, today, the little man seems to be bent on being the boss and doing whatever he feels like no matter what the consequences. Such as telling his teacher and his principal to shut up, telling a littel girl she should be killed on the cross (I guess maybe the Easter movie made too much of an impression on him), hitting, screaming, and demanding things that he in no way is entitled to nor deserves at this point.   Give me strength.

8.45 pm

He's nothing if not determined. But very sad now that 50 of his toys are gone. 

9.15  

And even sadder now that I've told him I've cancelled his social plans for the weekend - his respite worker was gonna come over with her two kids, whom he adores. So, now he's changing his tune. Finally. 

10.27 pm  Lol, or so I thought. Turns out the boy has endurance. He finally decided to co-operate with me, and now, I've (finally!) just put him to bed. 

It's been a looooooong day. Thank God it's over!  I think I'm gonna curl up with a nice hot chocolate, my teddy, and my blanket as I watch Romeo and Juliet... or maybe Across the Universe :) And think happy, dreamy thoughts :)

Technology...

As mentioned on FB, my dependable old PC proved to be not so dependable at all and crashed yesterday, just after I got home from work. Crashed hard, as in turned itself off and would not turn on again. Ah, it was such a let down. My heart fell as I thought "what in the world am I gonna do now?". I've become so dependent on this machine, it's crazy.

Mind you, if the same thing had happened in, say, last May, I don't think it would have bothered me as much. Probably wouldn't have dipped into my savings to Go To Staples, Go Directly To Staples, and DO NOT Bother With WalMart. Lol. I'm all reconnected now, but it's gonna take a while transfer my hard drive and get access to all my old files. Sigh. If it's not one thing, it's another, eh? Heh hee, whatever. Who needs sleep anyway?

And now, for something more appropriate...

Did I ever tell you that K-os is one of my absolute all-time favorite artists? I have all his regular albums, and aspire to collect all the underground releases as well. Anyway, after that last performance, I thought it might be good idea to post some music that does more accurately reflect my feelings these days:

http://www.last.fm/music/k-os/_/CatDieseL

Of course, no one else can perfectly describe your feelings but you, but this has gotta be my favorite song by him, so I guess it'll do until I write my own... which I have started, but am still working on :D 

The above song is currently my favorite one by him. A close second is this one:

http://www.last.fm/music/k-os/_/Dirty+Water

..though, I just noticed the above recording is a little funny - there's a lot of overlapping sound at the start that aren't normally part of the song - someone's homemade remix? Anyway, it clears up after a few seconds and the rest of the song is normal. 

I just love how he's reviving musical hip-hop... and his revolutionary use of guitar melody in his beats. K-os rocks!

Vice Versa

... i wish i had drawn this. If I had, it would've been "you can always make me smile" :)

that's one bad kitty

I indulged in a nap this afternoon, and was awoken to the sound of a cat mewing. Not so strange, you'd probably say, except that we don't own a cat. I opened my eyes and saw this:

Nikoli had to introduce me to "Pearl", his "new" pet kitty (newly rediscovered in his toy box).  I thought to myself, hey, I've seen this kitty before... pretty kitty. 

Silly monkey :)

today i caught a rainbow :)